Val Emmich
No more

This endless cycle
Start over again
Just like a bicycle
You never really forgot
Just get on the seat
And move your feet
And gradually
Pick up speed
Then just when you think
You're safe and sound
You hit a bump
Fall to the ground

I'm talking about love
I'm talking about life
That's the way I see it
I never really get it right

But after I fall I see it all
Just when and where
I dropped the ball
So next time around I'll hold on tight
But this time
It's another oversight

Lying on my back
I don't wanna get up
There's something peaceful about
Just giving up
No more ups and downs
It's just too much
No more hard goodbyes
No more love
And no more
Trying to be tough

No more

I'm not getting up
i'm not getting up
This time I'm really stuck
I'm not getting up

you know he's a recovering alcholic?
Where did he drink?
At my house when I thought he was out smoking.
You mean he keeps the alchohl in his truck.
no it's probably in my recycle bin at home.
i have trouble beliveing that

Weird
Sureal

I was shocked to think they would think I'd drink in front of my son.
I am not scared away. I think. Maybe a little.

i didn't know he had any thing to drink toight.
I asked him once about the empty cans in my gabage. no big deal to me.

Went to a haunted house with an old friend I haven't seen in years. It is so nice to see old friends reconect. That makes things ok. finding strength and peace in a lasting love. I am blessed.

I am worried about so many things my screw ups are showing the more I try and do the finishing work. sad, heart breaking and frustrating.Some mistakes compound as time goes on. Thank God for my job. enough of a distraction that and long enough that I can sleep at the end of the day. Nothing to do but just keep going on. The POD leaves today. I give Kasey back his card.

I liked thinking I was worth the higher standard he had for everything. I find myself holding on to the good things he said, the things he said that made me feel like it might happen... Those were just things. Not meant to be lies. Not true. He just likes to keep his options open. He told me that. That is a no. God I miss him.

I am not self motivated, or I don't work well alone. This may never be done. I am heartbroken, overwhelmed and alone again.

Collin Hay concert. I had a of fun. It was at the festival of the river in Arlington. I want to go next year. I should have more time then.

Working with this level lite was like making a big mud pie... Well, when I wasn't practicing my french. Lol.

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Missy HIggins

I could feel at the time there was no way of knowing
Fallen leaves in the night
Who can say where they're blowing

As free as the wind 
And hopefully learning why the seas and the tide
They have no way of turning

More than this
You know there's nothing
More than this
Tell me one thing

It was fun for a while
There was no way of knowing
Like a dream in the night
Who can say where we're going

No care in the world
Well maybe I'm learning why the seas and the tide
They have no way of turning

Oh
More than this
You know there's nothing
More than this
Tell me one thing

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No
Nothing

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Do you know something
More than this
Well tell me something
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